Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Its about 15 days of holiday or should I say hell? I haven't felt that I'm living life more fulfilling than before that I thought I would. Facing society pressure, I'm forced to make a decision in one month's time. Masters or a full time job?So many have been asking "what are you intending to do, what kind of job are you looking for?" With the after statement of "Better hurry, its hard to get a job now." Sigh... Like as if I haven't been just been through hell with all the crazy exams and assignments.
But I'm probably so depressed recently because I haven't had the time to play.. That's simply nobody to chill to the next morning or a supper buddy. Everyone seems to be working or studying at the wrong time. Besides, the number of assholes/ jerks recruited for the cigarette survey seems to be increasing. I really wonder how would someone rate my performance with all these fuckers that are dragging me down.
Worse, its so fucking gross when I try to be nice and act friendly, and they start like asking me out or over-asking certain questions. I totally get it, its part of the job scope.
How about those that ask about how much recruitment fees I'm getting? Or how much my mum is being paid? Insensitive bastards.
Thankfully, I can still smile and say, I finally met some nice ones today. I called looking for a standby tomorrow because an army guy couldn't confirm his attendance. I called at 11.30-11.55pm and I'm surprised. 80% actually picked up their phone or return calls. Some even volunteered to help me to search for people. Why didn't I meet such nice people initially :(
Sometimes, I secretly wished that these kind souls could actually be real friends in life but no, meeting them will be too extreme and awkward. Just wished that God could kindly implant some of them into my life from the start... Guess the search for a best friend will never cease cause no one is perfect.
Or maybe, I'm so used to staying away from someone once their flaws start to annoy the hell out of me.
Life is sad because of time. Why can't we just freeze the happy and carefree moments in our lives.
ACCEPTANCE 2:14 AM
